Quit being a baby!

I hate days like today where I just want the world to pity me. To stop and take notice of the super bad mood that I am in and realize that, obviously, none of it is my fault.

Today I'm cranky. I want to take a nap and wake up full of sunshine and joy. Or eat enough chocolate to stop starvation in some small African nation. No, I'm not PMS-ing. That would be easier to deal with.

While I'm dealing with a lot and I've got a lot on my plate, that doesn't give me the right to complain. I've got a job. I've got an awesome family and some super cool friends. So why am I in this funk?

It started out on Thursday. I stayed up until 1 in the morning with some of my aforementioned cool friends. Normally I go to bed at 10...thus, I was super sleep deprived on Friday...which was hilarious until about 3:30...then I crashed. Later that night I fell apart. Serious. Ask my family, it wasn't pretty.

Saturday should have been fine but, once again, I fell apart. And I couldn't fall asleep. Then Sunday rolled around and while I got to sleep in I didn't get to enjoy it. Then I stayed up just a bit too late, which turned into not being able to FALL asleep.

So here I am today. Trying to adjust to two new prescriptions, one of which is working okay, the other I just started so I'm not sure what's going to happen there. I'm trying to recover from the weekend, which shouldn't be how things should go, right?

So I'm trying to be cheerful, to not hate my hairdo that didn't work and my choice to wear my glasses instead of my contacts. I'm hoping that my new medicine will help me not get zits anymore...I'm almost 21 for goodness sake! Mostly I'm hoping that I can make it through this week and enjoy a better weekend next time around. Also that everything works out the way it should. And that we can hire some great people at work. And that I can try ONCE AGAIN to get my papers turned in. And that someone will just want to give me a hug and make sure that things are okay. I'm full of hopes and a couple of really big dreams that I don't know how to accomplish. Alright, time to smile again, stuff this all back down, and get on with life.