Pain

Pain comes in all shapes and sizes. It can be physical. It can be emotional. But it always hurts. Tonight I am hurting. I have a migraine the size of Canada pushing in on my brain. Why? Because I had an emotional breakdown today. I stopped holding in all of the pain and just let it out. Pain over having to leave my job. Pain over not going to school this semester. Pain over losing one of the best friends I have ever had. Pain over being slowly let go by another. Pain over having two months before I am leaving my family for 18 months. Pain over the cyst that is currently causing me colossal pain in my side. Pain because I haven't just cried a little bit as each of these things has happened. Pain from stupid-face Satan and his need to pick on me every single moment of every single day since I opened that big white envelope. So I cried. Buckets and buckets of tears. Then I went to the temple and cried because of the peace I felt. Then I came home and had a phone call that set me off crying again. I am tired of the pain. I am tired of feeling like someone else's emotional and physical punching bag. It is really getting old.