Wanting Something You Just Can't Have

Have you ever wanted something you couldn't have? I feel like I do that a lot lately. I look at cute married couples and their cute babies and think...gee, I want that. And I KNOW that right now I can't have that. My body isn't in a place where I should even think about getting married or having kids. I'm not healthy enough. I don't know what next week is going to hold health wise. I can't get attached right now even though I desperately want to. But it is other things too. Wanting to move out so I can have my own space again. Wanting my own computer again, wanting a car, wanting a better phone than the lovely, beat upon past it's prime phone I get to use. Why all the wanting. Why am I never satisfied with where I'm at or with what I get to be blessed with. I feel like I am always just looking forward and never enjoying the moment. And so, dear void who I write to faithfully, I want you to want to listen. I want you to care. I want you to be there for me. And yet, there you are, just a void. A void of cyberspace that devours my thoughts and waits for some bored soul to come and read them. Hopefully someone who is wanting too. Wanting a friend, wanting to learn something, to grow. Who knows, right?